I just realized that I haven't played since Memorial Day. The strange thing is , that I don't miss it as much as I thought I would. I have played almost every week for 3 years straight, so this is the longest I have ever taken off. Feels pretty damn good to be honest. I don't look at fields anymore and dream of putting a course out there. I don't worry about what the weather is going to be like this weekend. Its actually a nice break.
I sometimes used to feel trapped with all my thoughts being about disc golf. I have been going through some tough times and I used disc golf as my drug of choice, since I don't drink or do anything else. That is why I played so much. I think the turning point was during my vacation, I played twice a day for 4 days straight, and I got dehydrated, and I got very sick for about a month. That was a real wake up call for me. I realized that I need to take better care of my health, mentally and physical. I had never been that sick before ,and it was a real wake up call.
I now view disc golf as something fun to do , and if I get to fine, and if not, well, I am not going to loose any sleep over it, like I used to. Its a fun game, but its not my life. I have also decided not to play in any tournaments till next May. My home course is having a tournament in August, and I am usually happy about this, but this year, I really don't care. After being that sick, something inside of me really changed.
I enjoy hanging out here, and reading some of the forums, but I am not going to post as much as usual either. Somethings I just don't care to comment on anymore. My spirit for the game is just not there like it used to be. Oh well, I will still have fun playing, just not as much as I used to. Like I said, I don't know when I am even going to play again. I know for sure I am not playing this weekend. I am still practicing , but playing is another story. I am not sure why, but it seems like my fire is going out.
I sometimes used to feel trapped with all my thoughts being about disc golf. I have been going through some tough times and I used disc golf as my drug of choice, since I don't drink or do anything else. That is why I played so much. I think the turning point was during my vacation, I played twice a day for 4 days straight, and I got dehydrated, and I got very sick for about a month. That was a real wake up call for me. I realized that I need to take better care of my health, mentally and physical. I had never been that sick before ,and it was a real wake up call.
I now view disc golf as something fun to do , and if I get to fine, and if not, well, I am not going to loose any sleep over it, like I used to. Its a fun game, but its not my life. I have also decided not to play in any tournaments till next May. My home course is having a tournament in August, and I am usually happy about this, but this year, I really don't care. After being that sick, something inside of me really changed.
I enjoy hanging out here, and reading some of the forums, but I am not going to post as much as usual either. Somethings I just don't care to comment on anymore. My spirit for the game is just not there like it used to be. Oh well, I will still have fun playing, just not as much as I used to. Like I said, I don't know when I am even going to play again. I know for sure I am not playing this weekend. I am still practicing , but playing is another story. I am not sure why, but it seems like my fire is going out.