I'm stepping back from disc golf again for a while.
After a couple of recent events, I realized I am not nearly as mentally or physically where I need to be to be able to compete. I wish I wasn't so competitive or hard on myself, but that's just how I am. I am not naturally good at disc golf nor is my practice very fruitful.
When I sit back and think about it, I truly can't remember the last time I enjoyed playing disc golf in a competitive setting, probably years ago. It ends up with me pissed off almost every single time, sometimes manageable, but sometimes I go off the rails and do things I regret then I spend the next day or two mentally recovering back to a functioning human being. I am one of the most "chill" and easiest people to hang out with 99.99% of the time. It's only disc golf that has the power to evoke this uncontrollable rage out of me. I'm just consistently one of the worst players out there and honestly nowhere near one of the worst people athletically and definitely practice a lot more than most. I know it's not about other people, but I am not mentally capable of continuing to try to improve and put forth effort, but not getting anywhere while unathletic, unintelligent people play better than me with ease. For my own sanity and health, I cannot justify it. It sucks, but when I thought about never playing any competitive disc golf event in my life, all I feel is relief.
I might still hang around here some as analyzing form and helping people out is fun, but for now, I just have to stop. I know this is like my second time quitting, and who knows what the future will be, but for now I will just be happy throwing discs for my dog and watching the tournaments on Youtube.
Thanks to all who have tried to help me.