some call me...tim?
Double Eagle Member
OK, so this could probably fit into the "how to get out of a slump" thread, but I feel like I've taken my slump into such epic proportions it goes past slump-dom now, it just goes to straight out suckitude.
A quick history of how I got here...
This year has been the first that I've been playing seriously (at least on a competitive level) and have played a good number of tournaments. I've been playing MA2, doing well sometimes, not so hot others, but all around fairly decent.
Event 1. About a month ago, I played in a little summer solstice tourney, and played in Open, just because it was only a few bucks more, non-sanctioned, and figured I'd learn something from guys that were better than me. Two things happened here: 1. I played pretty solidly and ended up coming in 4th in a field of 16--guys that I know can shoot lights out on any given day; and 2. I got SO much shit when I told guys on my card that I played MA2, they made me seriously consider moving up to MA1 in sanctioned tourneys.
Event 2. Later, I played another small acepot at a different course, and shot kinda so-so...+2 after chundering the last few holes for the round. It wasn't great, but it was still somewhat competitive, and something I felt I could improve upon when I was focused. Signed up for the next PDGA event that day, which is on my home course, and stepped up to MA1.
Event 3. Then another tournament, non-sanctioned, all for fun. Played MA1 in that, but being that it was a just-for-fun tourney (at least in my mind) I took advantage of the lack of regulations concerning beverages, and so played pretty sloppily, especially towards the end of the day. I ended up next to last place, but didn't really care...I had fun.
Event 4. Another weekly acepot, same as Event 2. Started off strong, was -3 at one point, and then fell apart, my score snowballing to a +10 by the end of the day. It was embarrassing, and the worst score I'd ever shot there. Oh well, shake it off, everyone has bad rounds now and then.
Event 5. Same weekly acepot as 2 & 4. Not wanting a repeat performance of 4, I went into it with high hopes. Well, long story short, I shattered my worst round performance with aplomb. I don't even know what I finished at...I didn't want to know my score. All I can say is there were far more bogies (with a couple 5's and a 6 thrown in) than pars or birdies. Like I say...I don't know what I finished at, but I'd guess it was somewhere between +15 -+20. It sucked horribly, to say the least.
The few people on this board who know me, know that I'm generally a mellow guy and can laugh off bad rounds most of the time. But right now, I'm out of sorts. In the span of a month, I've gone from playing fairly respectably, to playing at rec level. To make matters worse, the aforementioned PDGA event on my home course is just a few days away now...I already figured I was playing above my skill level by entering in MA1, but now I feel like MA2 would be way above my ability. It's like I plateaued briefly there for a while, but now I've reached the other end of the plateau and have tumbled back down to where I first started.
To say I'm feeling discouraged would be the understatement of the year. A sampling of thoughts that have run through my head in the last few days: "I'll never play serious tournaments again"; "I wonder how much money I could sell my discs and bag for?"; "Screw this game, it was fun for a few years, but now it's over, time for a new hobby." With all of these thoughts, part of my brain says they're an over-the-top reaction, but another part of my brain says "maybe those thoughts aren't so outlandish after all...."
I guess the whole point of this post is, I'm wondering if anyone else has been in similar circumstances, and if so, what they've done mentally to recover. Like I say, what I'm feeling now is way more intense than just a slump. If a normal slump would be a trough, what I'm feeling now is a friggin' ravine. I'm planning on heading out to the course today, but its totally a testament to my willpower. Part of me really wonders if I want to keep playing this game, and I'm hoping that something will convince me I do. In other times, I've forced myself to play, had some good shots and felt it was all worth it...with what's happening recently though, when I've forced myself to play, I've just had worse play and dug myself deeper into my hole. Needless to say, I'm feeling a bit trepidacious about the upcoming tourney, and if it weren't my home course, I'd seriously consider not showing up. As it is, if I perform anything like I have lately, I'll almost definitely pack up and take my first DNF.
Sorry for the long, woeful post, but I'm hoping someone out there has been in a similar situation and has managed to get back on track and back to enjoying the game. I've done some of the stuff mentioned in the "slump" thread, all to no avail. Honestly, if someone said "been there, done that, just hang it up now and take up knitting," I might just do that. :? Again, sorry for the verbosity, and thanks in advance for any words of wisdom.
A quick history of how I got here...
This year has been the first that I've been playing seriously (at least on a competitive level) and have played a good number of tournaments. I've been playing MA2, doing well sometimes, not so hot others, but all around fairly decent.
Event 1. About a month ago, I played in a little summer solstice tourney, and played in Open, just because it was only a few bucks more, non-sanctioned, and figured I'd learn something from guys that were better than me. Two things happened here: 1. I played pretty solidly and ended up coming in 4th in a field of 16--guys that I know can shoot lights out on any given day; and 2. I got SO much shit when I told guys on my card that I played MA2, they made me seriously consider moving up to MA1 in sanctioned tourneys.
Event 2. Later, I played another small acepot at a different course, and shot kinda so-so...+2 after chundering the last few holes for the round. It wasn't great, but it was still somewhat competitive, and something I felt I could improve upon when I was focused. Signed up for the next PDGA event that day, which is on my home course, and stepped up to MA1.
Event 3. Then another tournament, non-sanctioned, all for fun. Played MA1 in that, but being that it was a just-for-fun tourney (at least in my mind) I took advantage of the lack of regulations concerning beverages, and so played pretty sloppily, especially towards the end of the day. I ended up next to last place, but didn't really care...I had fun.
Event 4. Another weekly acepot, same as Event 2. Started off strong, was -3 at one point, and then fell apart, my score snowballing to a +10 by the end of the day. It was embarrassing, and the worst score I'd ever shot there. Oh well, shake it off, everyone has bad rounds now and then.
Event 5. Same weekly acepot as 2 & 4. Not wanting a repeat performance of 4, I went into it with high hopes. Well, long story short, I shattered my worst round performance with aplomb. I don't even know what I finished at...I didn't want to know my score. All I can say is there were far more bogies (with a couple 5's and a 6 thrown in) than pars or birdies. Like I say...I don't know what I finished at, but I'd guess it was somewhere between +15 -+20. It sucked horribly, to say the least.
The few people on this board who know me, know that I'm generally a mellow guy and can laugh off bad rounds most of the time. But right now, I'm out of sorts. In the span of a month, I've gone from playing fairly respectably, to playing at rec level. To make matters worse, the aforementioned PDGA event on my home course is just a few days away now...I already figured I was playing above my skill level by entering in MA1, but now I feel like MA2 would be way above my ability. It's like I plateaued briefly there for a while, but now I've reached the other end of the plateau and have tumbled back down to where I first started.
To say I'm feeling discouraged would be the understatement of the year. A sampling of thoughts that have run through my head in the last few days: "I'll never play serious tournaments again"; "I wonder how much money I could sell my discs and bag for?"; "Screw this game, it was fun for a few years, but now it's over, time for a new hobby." With all of these thoughts, part of my brain says they're an over-the-top reaction, but another part of my brain says "maybe those thoughts aren't so outlandish after all...."
I guess the whole point of this post is, I'm wondering if anyone else has been in similar circumstances, and if so, what they've done mentally to recover. Like I say, what I'm feeling now is way more intense than just a slump. If a normal slump would be a trough, what I'm feeling now is a friggin' ravine. I'm planning on heading out to the course today, but its totally a testament to my willpower. Part of me really wonders if I want to keep playing this game, and I'm hoping that something will convince me I do. In other times, I've forced myself to play, had some good shots and felt it was all worth it...with what's happening recently though, when I've forced myself to play, I've just had worse play and dug myself deeper into my hole. Needless to say, I'm feeling a bit trepidacious about the upcoming tourney, and if it weren't my home course, I'd seriously consider not showing up. As it is, if I perform anything like I have lately, I'll almost definitely pack up and take my first DNF.
Sorry for the long, woeful post, but I'm hoping someone out there has been in a similar situation and has managed to get back on track and back to enjoying the game. I've done some of the stuff mentioned in the "slump" thread, all to no avail. Honestly, if someone said "been there, done that, just hang it up now and take up knitting," I might just do that. :? Again, sorry for the verbosity, and thanks in advance for any words of wisdom.